just came back from the bbq..
i seriously need A WHOLE LOT of time.
i just stoned the whole time.
he said i was very tense...
i was just thinking.of how my life would be..
but seriously
i don't feel anything..
nothing at all.
i keep asking myself this questions,over and over again everyday..
"was i a very bad gf?","did i do everything wrongly?"
"if i did things differently,would things be the same?"
"did i not care for him?","did he feel for me?"
i don't know..i really dunno what to do anymore.
i cant move on.
i keep holding back...
i really thot he and i was gonna work out.
sighs..
i love juon,i really do...

left her thoughts ♥ 11:06:00 PM